The Curious Adventures of Cub [1]

Hello once again! Yes, please bear with the rants of this bear. (:

Alright so anyways, today I'd just like to write down some of my unhappy thoughts and bad experiences I had today on this blog because I need somewhere to channel my bad emotions... (': And I'm pretty slow but I absolutely adore the new blogger because it's somewhat similar to MSWord now. :D

Keys unlock many things, secret or not.

*Sigh* My first bad experience today was with keys. Keys are funny little things that are fucking hilarious sometimes. Today, I met a laughable one that refused to unlock the padlock on the house's gate. Funny chap that one is. It just got you know... Copied. So typically, it could have been a failure the first time. But to fail twice? I was disappointed because I had been running late. Unfortunately luck was not on my side as usual. Not a new thing. Tsk. I had to go back to the market to meet up with mother to get that key again but only to return with that second failure. And since I was running late, I just simply had my shower and headed out to meet my boyfriend. (with the help of my mother's fashion advice, I wore a wonderful coverall with beautiful black leggings and a stretchy white top for the date.)

 Bitch, I'm fabulous.

Which brings me to my date with my boyfriend. We spent the day going about town to buy Christmas gifts for two of his tuition and close friends, then we continued walking till late evening and met like two more of his friends who were either at work or just dismissed from. Ever the popular boy he is! Hm. I decided I'll get him either a fashion accessory, clothes or simply something meaningful. The day ended sour though because I was left alone to wait for my bus and yeahh... Hunger issues too. )':

*Sigh* So mean. So mean.

 

To top it off, after I had my "dinner" that I had for takeaway, my recently quarrelling parents started lecturing me about how I shouldn't become a wild girl and all that stupid stupid shit. Telling me not to pet or cuddle or all that. )': I mean what did I do? I know it's good for me but... Do I honestly seem that wild in their eyes...? ): And when I said a friend invited me for Christmas caroling and to attend service at a church, they said I shouldn't and I would eventually become a Christian.  For gods sake (how ironic), I am a freethinker and a human being, I have the right to choose what sort of religion or belief I wish to follow yes? Be it science or whatnot. I got over a conversation about this online before with a random stranger and it annoyed me. A lot. Honestly, just mind your own religion, people can settle it for themselves alright? I want to always remain a freethinker because I think all religions have their awesomeness.

Anyways. It pains me to know that my own parents are kind of unbelieving about me and don't trust my instincts. I am truly upset about this. So I slowly walked away from the group and cried in the shower at what a horrible day I had. Ugh. The shame of the shower room. )x Then I knocked myself out of this mess and told myself that I should remain calm. I then locked myself in my room to reflect and write this post.

Yo! o:

Sigh. Horrid. Horrid. Mentally emotional day. Upsetting. Demoralising.

I do hope I'll do well in life. 

Goodnight and signing off!

somebearcub

New Beginnings and Rants

Good morning/afternoon/evening everybody!

So anyway! I started this new blog probably because I wanted to find a place to rant without troubling others. I want to make this blog a little shush but I hope I don't read it in the future when I'm an adult and wonder to myself what the heck I was thinking about when I was oblivious teenager. So I sincerely hope I don't speak any evils. :3

Sunflowers have always given us warm feelings.

Yeah but anyways, today's post will be about the topic of starting afresh.

As a sixteen-year-old in the current world; straight out of Secondary school... I feel really unsure of things. To be honest, I don't really have any idea what I want to do in life either. ): This makes me really sad.

Some would say, get a job. Others would say, study more. Another group would say, have fun. But right now, after seeing a friend of mine get an award for doing well in his studies this year, it makes me wonder and worry a lot about my 'O' Level results. ): I wonder if I worked hard enough... Was I playing too much or something? Because truly, I've been rotting my life away. (In a sense that I haven't given my best in studying during Secondary 3.) ): I don't mind going to a polytechnic, but will I get into the course of my choice?

I am so worried I won't be able to ascend into the future.

Which brings me to my next topic. Recent news have been going around and it says that a certain major and national exam will be scraped off from Primary school life for students here. D: BUT WHY. I mean, it's an examination to determine like, what Secondary school you will go to! If it's so insignificant in the first place to be so easily scraped off... Why did you introduce it? Stress? A primary school student has stress?! Try the working world. Try secondary school life or even University or Junior College. Really? ): I am not critising these actions but more to simply expressing my thoughts on this issue as a student myself, after all, many of us went through the exact same process to get into the school of our choice.

Read. Read. Study up. Study hard.

My goodness. What has the world become? Adults are funny people. They tell their children to be polite, to be respectful, to be open-minded, to be everything they're not. To be hardworking, to be creative and most importantly, to not lie. But why is it still that society tends to judge others negatively and shun them like the plague? Why is it that adults still lie in their workplace and backstab each other? Does it amuse humans to see each other suffer...? Tsk. Hypocrites. The irony and their contradictions are simply ridiculous. Honestly.

If everything were truly as wonderful and beautiful, life would be so sweet.

Anyway. I'm going to be flying off somewhere this holidays... As a matter of fact, I'll be flying off tonight! Maybe if I take this short trip, I'll be able to clear my mind and think more positively and work hard to become an even better person. I'll be leaving behind things like my boyfriend and... Things. )': But it'll only be for a week so I don't see why I should be sad? I guess? (': Sigh. I'll miss him though. <3

Oh right, before I forget. I don't mean to sound cliche-ish and corny all the time! (x Heheh! But yeah! I tend to overdramatise things sometimes and overreact. And also, just a brief further intro to this blog! I'll be using this space for writing my feelings and slightly more mature thoughts/rants and also perhaps more ~NC16 and above romance-y-ish slash perverted-ish stories soooo... Bear with me! :3 Leave a comment if you like! Yay or nay? (;

To emphasise my point and as a quick warm-up.

Aye. And I'll give you a quick lowdown on myself now. I am a sixteen-year-old female who recently dyed her hair copper brown. I adore taking photos, love watching movies, am smittened with bears and was once an important figure (head?) in school. Hmm. I enjoy meeting new people sometimes and I am open to many many teachings (simply putting it, I am quite a flexible person. xD Please don't take that the wrong way). I loathe math and am absolutely engrossed with the art of humanities. Do tell me if you'll like to know more about me! (:

Sort of like this? xD

Signing off!

somebearcub